Still here....still on lupron

I started a new job.  It's not unusual for me to be in a meeting at said new job and either be wondering about my donor - Daphne- and how all that will work out OR having a hot flash.  Lupron is not my friend.  I go through spells that I have no issues with it, but then some days I have one hot flash after another for a couple of hours.  I was also having bad headaches, but those seem to have stopped.  One night, I had night sweats.  That was super awesome.

I asked my husband (who is a MD) if maybe there was something wrong with me.  He pointed me to the Lupron side effects and I grudgingly nodded.  Lupron is like that girlfriend you have that you find yourself hanging out with even though she always says bad things to you.  You just can't help it.  My tummy is getting kind of sore.  I started having my husband give the shots - he's a bit better with the needle.

The night I had woke up covered in sweat with my hair wet - I wondered if this was all worth it?  I've gained weight, lost weight, been so depressed I couldn't leave the house, fought with my husband, had countless difficult conversations with friends/family, become intimate friends with all things ultrasound (perhaps another career in my future?), and had all kinds of people peering up my va-ja-jay.  I mentioned this to my husband and asked if ever felt like that.  Know what he said?

"I've really just had to jerk off in a room and make it into the cup."  I fucking hate men.

All Clear

Daphne (the nickname I've give our donor) is all clear.  I start lupron on 1/7/12 and she'll start her medication sometime at the end of January depending on when she gets her period.

So far, I've been happy with our donor agency and our new doctor.  Two hurdles I was scared of were that are donor would be fertile (it appears she is!) and she would be free of disease (she is!).  And most of all that she would show up.  I'm grateful that each of these hurdles has been passed with a relative amount of ease.  It's exciting to think this might actually happen, but I don't let myself get too excited.  This is a process.  A very long process.  Donor eggs give us more chances, with better eggs. 

I start a new job on January 9.  I'm hoping that it will distract me from all this DE IVF.  It would be nice to be enthralled in something else for a bit. 

I hope everyone is having a great New Year and best wishes on keeping those resolutions.  I'm on day 2 and still going strong :)