We retrieved three eggs, all mature, all fertilized. Day 5 Transfer of two blastocyst grade AA and AB. Quite frankly, I couldn't believe it! My prematurely old ovaries still kicked out a few good eggs. My beta is tomorrow. I did a HPT this morning and it was negative. I felt so positive before the test. Two blastocysts! Great looking! But negative.
My husband was very sad. I couldn't help feeling like I let him down. Like he married a defective person. I know this isn't logical thinking - I just feel horrible that I can't do what so many people can do effortlessly. My mom got pregnant with my brother at 37 the first month she tried! I keep asking myself why this is happening to me?? (Gosh, what an original thought that is...)
I told myself before this IVF that I was done using my own eggs. But then they surprised me. So, now I'm in a gray area. I'm not sure how to move forward - but I know I will move forward. Throughout this process I've learned it's about perseverance. Most of all, I learned I married the right guy. The love I feel from him is overwhelming. Truly. I'm very lucky.
Hi Mallory,
ReplyDeleteI'm really sorry about your last cycle. I wouldn't give up just yet if you can handle it.
I wanted to let you know that I tested positive for natural killer cells (as a result of the Hashimoto's) and most likely will be doing some embryo banking due to my low ovarian reserve and then using intralipids and a steroid to suppress the immune system for the frozen embryo transfer. My next challenge is to hope our embryos to make it to day 5.
Emily,
ReplyDeleteHave you had miscarriages? My doctor said they don't usually do any immune testing unless there are repeated miscarriages.
How long have you had Hashimoto's? Does your doctor think it has contributed to your DOR? I am interested in learning about your story, if you want to share.
Let's chat off blog.
ReplyDeleteNo miscarriages- never been pregnant. What's your email address?
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ReplyDeleteYou can email me at fertilehurdle@gmail.com