Transfer tomorrow

This cycle has sucked.  I don't know if I need to find a new doctor or I should blame my old ovaries.

On trigger day, I had six follicles and my E2 was 845.  (Not amazing, but I was impressed they could do it at all).  They retrieved 3 eggs, but only one was mature.  It fertilized and we will do a day 3 transfer tomorrow.  I know my chances are really low, but I keep telling myself it just takes one. 

The egg retrieval was incredibly painful.  My doctor uses conscious sedation and the drugs barely touched me.  My husband (who is a physician) said that amount of drugs should have knocked me out cold.  I remember all of it.  It felt like my doctor stuck her hand in my vagina and pulled my ovaries out and then plucked the eggs off with her fingers.  It was horrific. I'm not sure why I didn't respond to the drugs.  Has anyone else had this problem?

I wanted my doctor to give us more info after the procedure - like why was I in so much pain?  What happened to the eggs in the other three follicles?  Is it time to move to donor eggs?  This is my first time doing IVF; maybe you get more answers when you do the follow up appointment.  I just felt let down and also that I spent a whole lot of money on nothing (or to be tortured).   I can see why some people give up after one time.  It's a crazy roller coaster ride.